Confusion

I know you’re calling me,
But I don’t want to see.
You’re in my life,
But I don’t want to tell you about my strife.
I love you but I don’t want you to know.
I don’t want you to see me fall so just go.
I’m scared to death of losing you.
I’m in this situation and I don’t know what do.
I want to give you my all.
Sometimes I don’t know if you’ll be there if I fall.
You lead me home when I was lost,
And I never figured the cost.
I know in my heart I can’t make it without you in my life.
You taught me to put down the knife.
Some days I long to pick up old habits,
But that’s when I feel you by me where I sit.
God you’re here with me but I can’t see.
Right now I just want to flee.
Some days I regret the decision that I made,
But I know that by making it I am now okay.
I would never have conquered anything if it weren’t for you.
If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t know what to do.
I need your hand to guide me,
I need you to help me again believe.
Please rescue my soul,
Don’t let it go cold!