Confusion

I know you’re calling me,
But I don’t want to see.
You’re in my life,
But I don’t want to tell you about my strife.
I love you but I don’t want you to know.
I don’t want you to see me fall so just go.
I’m scared to death of losing you.
I’m in this situation and I don’t know what do.
I want to give you my all.
Sometimes I don’t know if you’ll be there if I fall.
You lead me home when I was lost,
And I never figured the cost.
I know in my heart I can’t make it without you in my life.
You taught me to put down the knife.
Some days I long to pick up old habits,
But that’s when I feel you by me where I sit.
God you’re here with me but I can’t see.
Right now I just want to flee.
Some days I regret the decision that I made,
But I know that by making it I am now okay.
I would never have conquered anything if it weren’t for you.
If it weren’t for you I wouldn’t know what to do.
I need your hand to guide me,
I need you to help me again believe.
Please rescue my soul,
Don’t let it go cold!

Help I'm in Jail!

How can you want me to remain in this jail?
No freedom is granted and it feels like hell.
I’m trying to rise above the trials,
But it’s taking me a while.
It feels like no matter what I do I find myself in a bigger hole,
And I feel so cold.
Did He disappear?
Does He know this is what I fear?
I hate being thrown to the ground.
However, when I get up I won’t make a sound.
I try to stand tall but I just fall.
I no longer know who to call.
I can’t handle the pressure that’s building around me.
I can hardly even see.
I don’t know which way to turn,
And my heart just burns.
God if you’re there take my hand,
And help me to stand.
If I’m your child hold me close to you,
Show me what to do.
I can’t make it through on my own.
I can’t even make it to calling a friend on the phone.
Don’t let me down,
Please show me you’re around.
I can’t handle another lie,
I just might die.
I can’t handle the stress,
So I must confess:
I need you in my life.
I need you to help me during my strife.
I’ve been hurt so many ways I can’t explain,
But each one left a horrible stain.
You are the only one who can rescue me,
Will you help me?

Life

Some times we think life is hard,
So we refuse to play our cards.
God is showing us the next move.
God is telling us what to do.
We're so scared to let go.
We're scared to let the pain show.
Our face is covered with a mask.
We think God has given us to hard of a task.
He never leaves our life,
Even wen we go through a strife.
He's there right beside us.
He's just waiting for our trust.
We throw our troubles into His face,
Because we don't win the race.
Take it slow,
And go with the flow.
God has you in the palm of his hands.
He is your biggest fan.
Don't blame Him for the pain.
Cry out to Him in the rain.

His Hand

So scared I can't breathe,
So tired I can't see.
So paralyzed I can't move,
So confused I don't know what to do.
God I need your hand.
There's a lot of things I don't understand.
So many things are going wrong,
I don't know how to stay strong.
I can't hear you whisper in the wind,
But I know you're there through the end.
Let me hear you one more time.
Tell me again it will be fine.
Show me your love again and again,
Even though I sin.
Let me see you one day face to face,
And tell me I'm not a disgrace.
Hold me in your arms,
And protect me from any harm.
Show me again and again you're always there.
Remind me just how much you truly care.

HIndering Burdens

I've tried so many times to lay my burdens down,
But for some reason they keep coming back around.
I'm constantly reminded of my sin,
And I don't want to go back again.
I know God is there,
So why am I so scared?
I can't feel Him around anymore.
It feels like I'm running into locked doors.
The windows are shut and there's no way out.
I can't figure out what my life's about.
It feels as though I'm running out of time,
And I'm being reminded of every crime.
He forgives and forgets,
So why must we regret?
Human nature makes us want to be who we're not,
And only cry out to Him when we're caught.
Sometimes we focus to much on the bad,
And don't praise Him when we're glad.
Give Him your life,
And He will help you overcome your strife.
This seems so hard when you're in the dark and lost.
However, He gave His son at all costs.

Help Me

It feels like my world is falling apart,
So where do I start?
I never got to say good-bye,
And I hardly even cried.
What is wrong with me?
Is there something I can’t see?
It’s like I’m lost and blind,
God please send me a sign.
You’re in my life,
But sometimes I can’t find you amongst my strife.
When I fall flat on my face,
You pick me up and put me back in place.
Never once did you turn your back.
Sometimes I wonder how you could cut me so much slack.
I was angry because you never let me say good-bye.
I’d cry out to you and receive no sign.
It felt like I was Job going through some of the same trials.
It felt like I was walking mile upon mile.
I tried to keep my eyes on you.
Now I’m scared and I don’t know what to do.
I’m riding the waves,
But I feel like a chained slave.
You walk with me everyday,
So why can’t I believe everything will be okay?
I’ve trusted you with my life,
I put down the knife.
I cry out to you when something’s wrong.
I can’t handle life I’m not that strong.
God I’m scared,
And I know you’re there.
I need you to be with me,
And show me who you want me to be.
It feels like I’m running in the same spot.
Nothing changes, and I’m caught.
Saying good-bye would it change how I feel?
God it’s so hard to deal.
I’ve lost people I love,
And I don’t know if they’re in the heavens above.
Will I ever see them again?
What about my friend?
He was so young he didn’t get to really live.
God he was only a kid.
I was angry when he didn’t make it through,
I didn’t know what to do.
Praying for him to late,
What was his fate?
He is your child God, and my friend.
How can you let his life end?
To my grandpa I never said goodbye,
However I did cry.
The tears do nothing for me,
They just mess up my ability to see.
There’s so much stress,
God I just want to rest.
Give me a little break,
My hands are starting to shake.
God I need you,
I don’t know what to do.
Please help me,
It’s getting hard to believe.

Looking in the mirror!

When I look in the mirror what do I see
Is it really truly me?
I can see my eyes,
I can also see past my own disguise.
I can see my face,
And I know my own disgrace.
I can see my hair,
And the scars I can’t bare.
When God looks at me what does He see?
He sees the true me.
He knows my faults and mistakes,
And He sees me when I shake.
He knows my heart inside and out.
He smiles when it is to Him I shout.
He says I am his beautiful daughter,
Because he is my Father.
He recognizes each tear that rolls out of my eyes.
He is the One who taught me how to fly.
How hard it is to see what God sees.
With the ways of the world I don’t see me.
I’m ashamed of how I look and sometimes who I am.
I trust in the world and His light seems to shine dim.
He has carried me through it all,
For He catches me every time I fall.
When I look in the mirror what do I see?
Is it the person God created me to be?

Show Me

Show me who I am these are the quiet words I pray.
Show me how to live for you day by day.
Right now the world has me wrapped around,
Its muffled my voice so I can’t make a sound.
I can barely hear your whispers in the wind.
I don’t understand why my broken heart won’t mend.
I know you’re the greatest doctor of all.
You help people up when they fall.
But what if they fell deep into the pits,
All because of a step they missed?
How could you bring them back?
They turned their back on you and fell into the cracks.
Would you love them just the same?
What if to you they never again came?
They tore you down and broke your heart.
So how can you let them go back to the start?
You’re a loving God who loves us all.
But what about when we fall.
It must hurt you terribly inside,
To watch your own children die.
You gave us a way to come back to you,
And you told us what to do.
Sometimes it’s hard to find out Your dreams,
Because we’re surrounded by life’s beams.
I need to know how to go on,
Just help me make it from dusk to dawn.